Okay. So my dad came home. And started yelling at me over some stupid chinese westside songs. As if I would know. Exchanged a few heated remarks. Oh well.

HmMmM.. Was suddenly thinking of bensee today. Wonder why. But there's one thing for sure, I know that bensee will be someone I will never forget. I sat on my bed reminiscing. Thinking of our belated Valentine's Day. How we met, the first time we held hands, and the first time we said "I love you" to each other. I was with him 2 months, and waited 4. Can you imagine? Golly. You'll realise time flies when you look back. I still remember each and every moment with him.

I remember when we were both lying under our tables laughing and talking on the phone. Guess erasing him from my mind will be quite unachieveable.

I didnt realise Monday is just tomorrow. I wish I didnt have art to go to. I wish we didnt break up so soon. I just want to stay at home and think through all that happened. I reckon its time to start facing up to reality. I've been running away for far too long. I even thought of what to say, and what to do when I meet him. And now we've broken up with no sign of reconcilation, and he's bringing Jonathan, his friend, along. Since he was bringing a friend, I thought I would too. So I got Sherlyn` to go too. Then Bell called me, and it seems that her bao bei Alson doesnt want so many people alone. To satisfy him I had to disinvite Sherlyn`. Its not a good thing, too. If I had to disinvite Sherlyn` why cant Joshua disinvite Jonathan. I guess tomorrow I'd be walking by myself and talking to myself. Rubbish. I feel so guilty now man. Sorry, Sherlyn`. I'd invite u again if I could. But apparantly I cant. Or Alson wont go. And if Alson doesnt go Bell wont go. What's this man.